What have I been trying to accomplish with this blog? Recently, I’ve had several people ask me this. Some even became aggressively angry that I’ve shown no direction. Some laughed and said everything I’m doing is pointless. I’ve been going throughout the last week or so trying to come up with an answer to this question. It’s probably the reason for the ever growing lackluster posts. Originally, the concept was interesting and it seemed like a good place to vent when I needed to. A mental and techincal challenge to boot. Looking over some of my past posts, I see that I haven’t really established any kind of theme, hence, the confusion with the readers (the few there are). But I awoke from a nap this afternoon and suddenly I realized something.
You don’t have a f*cking clue. I’m not here trying to evoke some sort of feeling from you. If I do, well then that’s a nice perk for me, but it’s not my goal to entertain. I’m here because I don’t mind sharing certain things and even though it looks like there’s no direction right now, I do have a general plan.
I’m not breaking into your homes and setting your default page to my site. No one is forcing you to visit. I could care less if you do. What I do care about are the pointless comments the ignorant nutless assholes make (both anonymously and known). All it takes is one to start it and the rest of the sheep follow. Because of that, I’ve been forced to turn the option off for you to comment all together. You want to post some feedback? Great! Here’s the way to do it. Start your own blog and see what comes of it. I mean that’s the whole point to these things, right? So that even the common thoughtless bastards like you and I have a public place to throw things out into the open. You don’t like my nonsense? Go make your own.
Ok, so i’ve definitely gotten off track already in the month and a half that I’ve started this, and I want to change that. I want to turn it back into something personal for me. A venting ground and place to reference my past thoughts. No more beating down random bums in a drunken frenzy at 3 ‘o clock in the morning. This is my outlet for anything and everything. That is, after all, what a journal is, right? You’re invited to look over my shoulder and view if you want and I’ll be happy to read your thought out responses on your own forum. Most likely that wont happen because the people who are making the comments don’t really care either way, in which case I, in turn, don’t care what you think.
My God, I’m rambling. Where is this all going? Beats the hell out of you I’m sure. All that matters, though, is that I know where it’s going. Good luck to us all…